Graduation. June 2005. And Dr. Seuss' "Oh! The Places You'll Go!" He seemed to capture the anticipation and fear that had taken residence inside of me. I wondered which places I would "go," and how my unrealized dreams would come to pass. My accomplishments after High School may be magnified to those who look at them. They are great accomplishments, but where I thought leaping and prancing would be, there have been faint and weakened steps forward...The journey is different than I'd imagined, and far more painful than I'd ever wanted.
I am ever confronted by my intense desires: for grand and beautiful moments and fulfilled aspirations! Sometimes I hate everything that I want! My dreams show their faces to me, and appear at times like monsters. I am haunted by them. I see here, in my valley, that I need to do some un-dreaming. There are hopes I have that were never in my Makers' plan for me.
"Which places shall I go, Lord?" and "Which dreams shall I undream?" It is a terribly, beautiful thing to throw off my purposes for His purposes. I hope that God will stitch my dreams to His, like Peter Pan's shadow was stitched to him, (after much fussing, I must say). I'm not certain if my next steps will be big and bold. Perhaps my stepping will be miniscule and simple, but it will lead me to a place that I shall go...And because I am "going" I can be grateful.
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